As we human beings gain more knowledge, technology begins to improve.
As we gain freedom, population begins to grow larger.
As we gain courage, more begin to stand up and fight for our nation.
But through all of this, the world begins to grow less beautiful with every passing moment,
because the thing we lack most is appreciation for the smallest natural wonders
and the care and wisdom provided by our loved ones!
Have you ever thought of just stopping in your tracks to smell the sweet scented flowers?
Have you ever really appreciated the small things in life,
like a true and sincere smile from someone you care about?
Have you ever thought of slowing down to enjoy the journey,
insted of concentrating so hard on your destination,
that you miss out on all the wonderful scenes the journey has to offer?
Do you ever think about your health before your pleasure?
Do you ever stop to think that maybe your loved ones want you to live a little longer?
Do you ever wonder if maybe the future really is worth waiting for?
Or do you just want to watse away your now
by carelessly drinking or smoking away your time?
Why do people think it's more fun to get drunk,
when half the time you wont even remember the so-called fun you had?
Don't we have fun so we can look back on the wonderful times we had?
Ins't it better to have memories of the fun times,
insted of wasting yourself away with drugs and alcohol?
What is the point of such if all it does is kill us faster?
Life is worth living if you realise how amazing it can truely be...
It's not as boring as you think without the drugs and alcohol,
you just make it out to be that way in your mind,
so that is how it appears in your reality.
Reality becomes nothing but another game,
and the beauty of love and pure joy is swept away.
While other people are enjoying their time with their family and friends,
others think they are enjoying life more by getting high and drunk,
killing themselves slowly because they think that's what life is all about,
while all their loved ones can do nothing but watch,
because no matter what loved ones say to try and make them see,
they do not listen, they think only that these people want to ruin their fun.
How the world has gone to the dogs!
How selfish and egocentric we become that love never lasts very long anymore,
or in some cases, it was never even there in the first place.
How unbearingly stubborn we have become that now pride comes before anything else.
How ruthless we are that now love is just a game and cheating is an option.
The universe is expending,
the earth is shrinking,
the countries are fighting,
the people are revolting against each other,
the children are indulging in prevocative ways,
the teenagers act like more than just teenagers,
the beauty of our world is fading!
What more can we do if we cannot help ourselves;
If we cannot change ourselves for the better?
Our world is dying...
And with it, we shall die!
Faith and hope are all the rest of us have left,
to trust that those in need of change will find it in themselves!
These are the things that swirl through my mind everyday...
These are the things I see.
These are my Random thoughts.
This is life, this is now, this is me!
Copyright (c) Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora, 2009
5 August 2009
Live Forever (Fly With Me)
AWSOME song! I totally fell in love with this song the minit i heard it. The lyrics are really nyc too... Lyk in Cupid's Chokehold. I ben tatlly hookd on these guys! lol! I ben lisnin to their Album "The Quilt" + Cupid's Chokehold + Clothes off NOT STOP for a str8 week now! at home, in the car at school. my teachers are gettin fed up of tellin me to remove my headphones and my friends are complainin they cnt borrow my ipod anymor cuz i wont stop lisnin. lol! DAM! I'm too hookd! hahaha! Anyway, yea. the song. it's awsome!
Song
http://mp3-codes.com/?page=directory&do=search&query=Gym+Class+Heroes&pagenumber=4&id=75263
Lyrics
I see a window and all I can think about is
Do you wanna fly with me?
Do you wanna fly with me?
I know it sounds crazy but I can't find solid ground so
So do you wanna fly with me?
So do you wanna fly with me?
and i been starin at this window for the past 11 hours
thinkin about all the opportunities this window has to offer
from the 23rd floor to the filing cabinet east manhattan to
FDR is beautiful as im watchin all the cars passin
an a couple stars twinkle so i started laughin
and a couple walked by an they looked so happy
i booked this room at this place called the last resort
all my bags are packed i got my jacket an my passport
a first class ticket to the after life you dig me
now is you is or is you aint with me
and i fully understand if you got other plans
but i can't see you hand in hand with another man
i been on autopilot since we last spoke
and i dont want to board this flight on a bad note
i want you think about it but either way i'm goin
an if you really love me then heres the chance to show it
i see a window and all i can think about is
do you wanna fly with me?
do you wanna fly with me?
i know it sounds crazy but i can't find solid ground
so do you wanna fly with me?
so do you wanna fly with me?
we'll live forever, they'll write a novel about our love
she looked me dead in the eyes
and took me by the hand
kissed me on the cheek an said "baby listen i understand
you dont have to leave plus im scared of heights
so just put down your luggage forget about this flight
you and i, you know we been through a lot of things
but its no reason to start trippin an arguing"
she said "you are my king I place no one above you
and I dont have to board a plane for me to show I love you
and all this talk about the after life is kinda creepy
so lets just go lay down and talk I'm gettin kinda sleepy"
I kinda smiled and we both walked to the window I pulled it shut
and started staring at the sky I wiped a couple tears away
an then we looked at each other an
I could see the stars twinkle in her eyes
I told her about the couple I saw earlier
she said "I'm sure they're cute but they're not you and I"
i see a window and all i can think about is
do you wanna fly with me?
do you wanna fly with me?
i know it sounds crazy but i can't find solid ground so
so do you wanna fly with me?
so do you wanna fly with me?
we'll live forever, they'll write a novel about our love.
i see a window and all i can think about is
do you wanna fly with me?
do you wanna fly with me?
i know it sounds crazy but i can't find solid ground so
so do you wanna fly with me?
so do you wanan fly with me?
we'll live forever, they'll write a novel about our love...
What Now...?
By Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora
Thursday 26 March 2009 (0912h)
Smiling and laughing I
Feel disgusted at myself
Pretending and acting like nothing is wrong
My face portraying a person that
Doesn't exsist within my body
Abundant in Logorrhea on the surface
while inside I know it's taking all my energy
Draining my heart and my soul
Emptying my senses
But I wont stop hiding the
Shallow and unnecessary depression that is
Aching to burst out
But I wont let it happen
Not again
Not today
Not after everything everyone who cares about me
Has done for me
Has said to me
Disguising the tears
My inner hurt and confusion
Hidden behind a mask of false happiness
Fake smiles and heartless laughter
when really inside I'm broken
Dying and discintigrating
Into a corpse with no soul
A body with no emotion, feeling or heart
Becoming something
I never wanted to be
A monster within myself
Destroying the person I worked so hard to become
And promised I'd always be
The hurt from being thrown aside so suddenly
Like nothing but another peice of garbage
Cannot possibly compare to the mounting pain
Of knowing I've lost yet another friend
I've lost a part of me
I've lost my state of mind
The piercing ache from knowin
That I've lost myself
But I will go on
If not now, then later
And I will not stay down
Over and over I fall
I stumble and tumble and fail to take flight
But I always get back up
Even if it takes an eternity
I always get the last say on
what happens to me
What happens to my life
So I'ma Cry
I'ma hurt
I'ma scream and writhe in agony
But I know
That sooner or later
It's me that's gon have the last laugh
The last real smile
The last sincere truth
That's right
I'm gon have the last laugh
"HaHa!"
xoxoxoxoxox
Copyright (c) Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora, 2009
26 March 2009
Lost
By Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora
Wednesday 25 March 2009 (0821h)
Travelling within the cold shadows of my
Mind, I feel the damp chill of a
Stubborn heart, a stubborn girl
Difficulties fly at me one after the other
Piling and piling on top of one another
Cracking my spine as the load on my back gets bigger
Day to night the random mess
Flying around within my throbing head
With all my complex thoughts and mindsets
One might think this difficult life I live is
Nothing but hurt and misery
But no...
It is challenge to test human endurance
It is hidden strength waiting to be set free
It is life shaping and moulding me into someone
Who will make loved ones proud and be proud of them in return
Underneath the pain and tears
Is one of the strongest, wisest people I know
An understanding soul that suffers with you through your pain
And endures by your side always
Not because she is forced to
But because she wants to
Underneath the anger and troubles
Lies a heart that has been
Carelessly tossed around and broken so many times
But reassembled with passing time each time by the strength within
The scars always remaining
But not reminding of the pain and sudffering
But reminding of the experience and wisdom gained from it
A heart that loves and cares
No matter how many times it continues to get scarred
By those it cares most about
Most would think a person with so much
Betrayal and anguish within herself
Would be tired of the life she lives
But no...
These complexities and thoughts
My troublesome mindset
My ability to feel hurt
The emotions I show
That I'm always so open about
They make me who I am
They make me better
They make me see and understand that
Though I get diminished and worn out
By my own mind and emotion
I am better off than those who
Don't care who they are
Dont care how they are
Or how they live
Living without feeling
Living simply for living untill it's
Time for them to leave the planet and
Go into the forever-after we're all destined for
The reckless actions and
Uncaring lifestyle they hold
That's not for me
I Live for me
I live for those I love
I live a life that I want to
Remember always as it is
A full and fulfilling life that
Not only makes a difference to me but
Also to those I care about
Those I once cared for
And those I'm sure to care for in the future
All this leaves me with a
Small glint in my eye and a smile lingering on the edges of my lips
Behind the tears and sadness
That take over my face
Lies a sparkle
A face so true in itself
Showing confidence and a will to
Never be
Lost...
xoxoxoxox
Copyright (c) Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora, 2009
25 March 2009
