Asleep

I cannot sleep
Without you here, I'm unable
I lie awake until exhaustion takes over
When the sun comes up, I finally sleep

I feel asleep
Without you here, I am idle
I distract myself through the days of your absence
When I am with you, I finally live

Yet, when I am with you, I sleep
It is the most comfortable sleep I can sleep
When I lay on your chest, in your arms, I am safe
You are my true comfort; I drift to sleep

I am restless
Knowing that it may be a while
'Til the next time I lay with you at night to sleep
It is a little heart breaking... I sigh

It is so cold
You are so warm, you are my warmth
You embrace me; Take the cold from my skin with glee
In your presence, I can find peaceful sleep

I am hopeful
I will hold you tight every night
One day, I won't have to let go of your comfort
The darkness will be filled with my starlight...

... and I will sleep

Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora (c)
17 December 2015 [0404h]

Afraid

I am afraid
I don't want to admit it
I didn't really see it
But I am afraid

You are so beautiful
I can't help but stare
You are my treasure
I can't help but fall

I am in love
So much... too much
You love me
But you are not in love

I am not hurt
I have faith
I am not left wanting
I have more than I had hoped for

Could you ever feel the same?
I do not know
Do you know the answers?
What are you keeping locked away?

You adore me
I am important
I am special
I am in love

I am scared to lose you
Like you are in general
You are afraid to lose
You won't lose me

I reassure you
Can I reassure myself?
I know you love me
Why am I afraid?

I watch you sleep
You are so beautiful
Am I a fool?
You are so beautiful

I feel warm
I feel whole
I feel loved
I feel safe

I don't know if I'm afraid...

Margaret Nicolas DecenaAlpajora 
8 December 2015 [0436h]