Pieces of the Puzzle
Thursday 12 February 2009 (1146h)
By Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora
Pieces of the puzzle
They don't seem to fit
Causing confusion
Hit after painful hit
The pieces if my puzzle
They trouble me so
I think I'll leave this for now
Try to solve it tomorrow
This puzzle, it taunts me
It's laughing in my face
It's trying to destroy me
Tryna make me lose this race
Day after day, night after night
This puzzle's got me screamin'
I leave it for the next day
Still it stops me from dreamin'
This puzzle, I hate it
It's causing too much hurt
So the puzzle, it's gone now
I threw it in the dirt
To get rid of crazy problems
Is more or less the same
Forget them and be happy
Or you'll lose out on the game
xoxoxoxox
Copyright (c) Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora, 2009
12 February 2009
Choice
Wednesday 11 February 2009 (1427h)
By Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora
Made a choice
I'm not going back
The past is the past
There's no changing that
I've made a choice
And it's over with him now
I told him just yesterday
That it wasn't working out
I feel really bad
Cuz at school I kept him secret
The whole school thought we'd broken up
Truth be told, I couldn't do it
But now the task is done
And I'm not tied down no more
Free to like my school crush with no guilt
And find a way to close the door
I feel bad I didn't tell him
That I wasn't really free
When I asked if he would like
To come to the school ball with me
But now I've made a choice.
I chose to let life flow, use my voice.
I chose to not look down, look up, rejoice!
The choice I made, I hope it's the right choice...
xoxoxoxox
Copyright (c) Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora, 2009
11 February 2009
I'm Losing It!!!But Hey...! ;)
Saturday 7 February 2009 (2353h)
By Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora
I can't stop thinking
And I'm going insane;
I can't sleep
Cuz there's too much in my brain.
Worried bout form 5
But crushing on this guy;
He's in my school
And we hang out all the time.
But I have a boyfriend
And it's just not working out;
For a month, it hasn't been the same
And we've had nothing to talk about.
I can't forget to mention
My bestfriend who be my ex;
It seems his friendship's slipping away
And I don't know what to do next.
The wierd thing is:- I'm happy
But my mind won't let me rest;
I'm up all night
Cuz of these thoughts I'm starting to detest.
There's not much I can say
But I think I should explain;
How some thoughts keep me happy
And how others cause me pain.
My ex is in the past
But I keep thinking 'bout the break-up,
And how it quickly turned our friendship
Into nothing more than grey dust.
Sometimes I cry at night
Cus of the loss of a friendship so dear,
And the memories of those happy days
Often make me shed a tear.
As for my current
I'm just too proud to break it off just yet,
He's really sweet but I can't keep stalling
Or I might one day regret.
Some friends say I should end it,
Some say that I should wait,
And others question
Why I had accepted anyway.
Straying from confusion
To the thoughts that keep my smile;
My crush, I see him everyday
And I knew him as a child.
He's funny, sweet & different
And, wow, can he beat-box great,
He's great to chill with and lots of fun
So often I get to class real late.
Past, present and future
Time cannot tell,
It throws us many challenges
We end up calling Hell.
But I realise a life with no challenge
Is just no life at all,
We can only do the best we can
And get up everytime we fall.
These horrors put before me
Are there to help me grow,
So I won't complain, I won't give up
What lies ahead, no one knows.
The problems of one teenager
Don't amount to much in our crazy world,
But all we can do is work hand in hand
Every boy and every girl.
So the world can be a better place
We help each other out;
Friends are there for a reason, that's why I'n not screamin'
Through all this pain and doubt.
So now I just wanna thank all my friends
And I really don't know where to start,
But they stayed with me from beginning to end
So thanks guys, from the bottom of my heart!
"I Love You Guyz!"
xoxoxoxox
Copyright (c) Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora, 2009
7 February 2009
