Well... i fink this video is kinda self explanatory...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKV-3A7XGyw
but there's a simple explanation...
2nd Feb 2008
a group of teens hung out together.
acting crazy and having fun.
From that day...
They were known to be 13 people who loved and trusted each other. A LOT!!!
The best of friends.
They hung out... had fun... laughed... smiled... chilled...
and acted CRAZY together... just cuz it was fun!
They ended up being known as "Psychopath".
They had no idea where the name came from or where it started but they took it in.
it was kinda cool. lol.
well... they took it to new levels. made it their own.
but the one thing that was most important, was that through all the tough times and struggles,
they always remained the best of friends.
For months, they remained best friends!
true Friends! homies!
A Family!
13people, one heart!
"Psychos4Lyf & Psychos4Real" they used to say!
It was a paradise...
a paradise of Friendship... Hope... and Strength... and Love!
Sooner or later... some of them forgot why they even became psychopath in the 1st place... and as time went by, they started falling apart...
nobody knows how... or why...
Things happened...
Lies developed and spread amongst themselves...
Bonds were shattered...
Love faded...
Tears were shed...
Hatred spread...
Psychopath... Was Broken...
Why am i telling you this?
Why is it even my business what happened to psychopath?
well...
Cuz i was one of them...
woah... i just said "was"...
Like... like it no longer exists...
what's happening?
13 closest friends...
13 Funny nicknames...
13 hearts, merged into one...
Then separated once more by the cruelty of the new world we have come to live in.
May - MiniMe
Nadia - SupaSize
Amrita - Frizz
Helen - AcidPop
Dany - LilMama
Baisey - SoundEffect
Mosa - Shtick
Susan - GoldenEye
Stephen - Animax
Ati - CandyBoy
Josh - LePimp
John - WatchDawg
Mwansa - DaDrip
And now...?
Now what happens?
Do we just LET ourselves Fall apart...?
or are we gonna Even just try and fix it?
Supasize wants ta meet us all at the end of the year when school closes...
to talk. yea. just to talk.
about anything...
anything at all... just to bond.
then transfer into the subject of our friendship... its state... its existence...
and then we can decide the fate of what was once known as some of the Greatest friends on earth...
Psychopath!!!
Copyright (c) Margaret Nicolas Decena Alpajora, 2008
8 November 2008
Okay I get it.
It was fast.
You don't like it.
I know exactly where you're coming from with this.
and i understand you fully.
but can i help it?
can ANYONE really help it???
do you wanna tell me y u hating on me?
do u wanna tell me y u hating on him?
should i have told frizz the truth?
so she cud criticize me?
so she cud tell you about it, shtick, so you cud criticize me too?
are u 2 the only 2 who know?
no. you're not. so why is it you're the only 2 that don't like it?
"Supasize" seems fine wit it.
"Soundeffect" accepts it all with a smile on her face.
and she was there with us too. at Riverwalk. smiling and laughing with us.
but would you do the same thing?
did you read any of the other notes or blogs describing how i feel?
are u even gonna read this 1?
i know you're only saying these things because u care.
and u don't wanna see me get hurt again.
but don't u think I'm smart enough, strong enough to handle it?
do u think tat i wont learn from my past experiences?
just live life then not see anything?
don't u think i know wot I'm doing? tat I've taken caution to all this so i don't hurt myself? so i don't hurt him?
do u think I'm just walking past all this without thinking?
yes! I've thought about it.
and you'd know maybe if u read the ish i right.
did you bother to ask any1 else about the matter?
did u bother to ask ME about any info before treating me like i broke the law???
are u just assuming things or do you even know how long iv known him?
Heck! even one of my closest friends, sum1 who really did save my life, really dislikes him.
and yet he says he's happy if i am.
w8! does that matter to you?
did u bother to ask me how it affected me at all?
don't u want me to live a normal life without fear of feeling again?
or did u once again just make more assumptions and think I'd do something without knowing what I'm doing or knowing who I'm getting into things wit 1st?
are you just jumping to conclusions the minute u hear or see something that u don't like?
i don't get it anymore...
i understand that u care. and u don't want me gettign hurt again.
but why are you treating me as if i were just about to jump off a cliff?
why must you make your own silly conclusions without talking to me first?
why am i being punished for feeling good about myself again?
why can't you ask me about it without making it seem as big as some court case?
Why do you hate that I love again?
Answer me this.
With valid reasoning and information!
With confidence and calmness.
Without crowding around me and shouting at me without having talked to me 1st.
With real signs of compassion and care as my friends.
Instead of shock and disbelief as my peers.
Please. Do me this one favour.
and i will ask no more questions.
Just think about it 1st... before you do the one thing you're trying to prevent... and hurt me.
Think about what you're going to say. and if wot u said to me and how you said it was right.
Tell me if you don't like it but tell me because you care.
not JUST cuz u don't want me to.
I'm Sorry.
But I do!
The uLTimate Challenge!
Days go by and nights run past
And as they do, my head is spinning.
Thoughts run quick and rapidly through my mind.
Things seem so confusing, yet so great at the same time!
What is happening to me?
I didn't mean to fall...
I liked you, I really did. A Crush. But i thought that would be it.
I don't know how you pulled me in deeper than i wanted to go;
With your charm, and your humour, and how sweet you are...
And the way we talk to each other... All the time.
And yet... I find it hard to object.
Because I've grown to discover that I like you a lot more than i thought I ever would...
But I don't know what to think!
It feels so nice to see and live in the care you show for me...
But I'm Scared!
Scared that if I fall too hard again, and get too attached...
Then you'll break my heart...
Just like he did.
And once was enough for me...
Once was too much.
What do I do?
What do I do when my world is being torn apart,
When my world's coming to an end,
Simply because my heart's too scared to live again,
To catch that warm inviting fire of closeness to another,
Another as sweet and charming as yourself...
For Fear of being broken once more.
Time moves forward,
And as it does, I go with it.
With you pulling me along every step of the way.
What should I think when the forces of life seem to be crushing down upon me?
I'm falling again.
Falling Hard! And I didn't mean to.
But I Like It... And at the same time, I'm Scared of it!
Because the pieces left of what used to be my heart,
Refuse to feel the piercing pain of being broken once again.
And I then ask for help,
Help from an old crush... A Close Friend.
He wants me to go with it,
He says its a good thing...
(Even though he doesn't like you all that much)
He wants me to Live!
But he too fears that I will break once more...
That my heart will break again, if I give it away to you.
He changes direction, sharp and fast,
And says that I should keep myself at enough distance...
As to not fall so hard... Like I did before.
Like I did when I gave my heart and soul to he who broke my heart for the first time in my life.
He I sacrificed so much for, and got heartbreak in return.
He doesn't want that to happen to me again...
Will you be the one to break it a second time?
Seeing as you're the second person in my life I really fall for...?
Will I fall so hard again that I can no longer get up?
Will I be the one to ruin myself in search of a new beginning?
Or will you let me keep at a good enough distance where I will not have to cry when you can't stay?
Or will you stay?
It doesn't matter anymore, because I want to live my life without fear!
So whatever the consequence, I'll take the risk!
Cuz for all I know, You're worth it!
Just as he was worth it... Giving me the experience of a lifetime...
You could be worth it all,
But the future is unknown, and hard to predict.
Yes, I'm scared of being broken once more!
But I Do Not want to simply exist... Without living my life!
So for now, I wont think about it!
For now, I go with where the winds of life take me!
And if its leading me to you, that's just where I'll go!
Cuz life's not worth living if I'm trapped behind my own fears,
Simply existing... but not loving... not Living...
I've learned the hard way that there is no such thing as Forever.
But in this moment in time, my forever is Right Now!!!
So I'll take what I'm given and run every risk...
And endure the consequences in the end.
But for now, I live with no thought of what might happen.
And I turn my back on the past,
Close my eyes to the future...
And just Live... Live in the moment!
Live for now... The Present!!!
And see what surprises this thing we call life shall throw my way!
Yours Truly,
Baby May!
Much Luv!!!
XoXoXoXoXoX
